Breakdown

by Nervous

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1.
Son of son, born to lose, toxic views since he was born Hard to find space to fill, can’t sit still, anger, boredom Anxious feet, liquid eyes, escalate, shapes are not right Mouth turns frown, everything’s upside down, embers ignite Son of son, go to school, be a man, stop your sobbing Fall in love, shoot a gun, have good skin, poison pattern Be a man, has no tools to comply with the demands of A shattered world thought is crime bought and sold Armageddon Despite all the algorithms and the exorcisms And the tears and the schisms And the tantrums and the prisons We gotta stand tall during the rattle and the shake From the beat of our hearts, to the beat of the drum Put the needle on the record hear the feedback and hum There is beauty in decay beauty in disarray And for all the sons of sons that were thrown away Like trash on the dustbin of unwritten history It’s fine to be a mystery When the shapes don’t fit, and you’re running out of time Loss of control is near and they treat you so unkind And you’re terrified of all the things that you might find Put the circle in the square, circle in the square, circle in the square Don’t get frustrated Put the circle in the square, circle in the square, circle in the square Get liberated, got to get elated Put the circle in the square, circle in the square, circle in the square And dance all night, keep those records spinning now Put the circle in the square, circle in the square, circle in the square And dance, dance good God, won't you help me now I wanna see community outside society I wanna see community outside society I wanna see community outside society I wanna see community community community community yeah Yeah Uh huh Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
2.
God-damn it I’m talking about my heart I don’t know how I could live this life without you In complicated times that can tear us apart We’ve been through the battles, the war, the détente, and the truce Let’s take a deep dive into the fire and flame Immersed in ashes, burnt eye lashes, emboldened, and chained All of my love and my heart to you All of my heart and my love to you All of my bruises and scrapes to you Elude the ghosts of the past with you I don’t know how I’d live this life without you Don’t call me an ambulance if I’m feeling weak I don’t have a fever, or a cough, and my breathing is deep They opened up the city gates and sang us a song The king and the sycophants, the cult of “it’s time to move on” The hammer of seclusion beats deep in our chests But we got what it takes to elude the ghosts of the past All of my love and my heart to you All of my heart and my love to you All of my bruises and scrapes to you Elude the ghosts of the past with you I don’t know how I’d live this life without you These are the days of plague and sorrow Inside your kiss I feel distress You know that you’ll wake up tomorrow In a world of chaos and unrest I’ll breathe my wind into your fire When everything’s out of control I’ll be the fight when things are dire I’ll be the scream inside your throat All of my love and my heart to you All of my heart and my love to you All of my bruises and scrapes to you Elude the ghosts of the past with you All of my love and my heart to you All of my heart and my love to you All of my bruises and scrapes to you Elude the ghosts of the past with you I don’t know how I’d live this life without you
3.
So long Underground It's been nice So long Underground Been a while since I've seen the light You have been a home Where the music scene could come to life You have been my home Where I learned how to burn down the night Thumping kicks Screaming amps And all the singing Getting lost in the loop drone With all the feedback in the mic My ears are ringing One more song and we'll go home So long Underground We had a good time So long Underground Totally gonna romance the grime And all the bleed Sneaking into all of our recordings And all the weed Enveloping cacophonic exploring Thumping kicks Screaming amps And all the singing Getting lost in the loop drone With all the feedback in the mic My ears are ringing One more song and we'll go home So long Underground I owe you a beer So long Underground Helping me to battle all of my fears And when the lights have all gone off We will sing The story of The smelly basement over flooding with dreams Ooohh Thumping kicks Screaming amps And all the singing Getting lost in the loop drone With all the feedback in the mic My ears are ringing One more song and we'll go home One more song and we'll go home One more song and we'll go home Home Oooh aah Oooh aah Oooh aah Aah aah aah
4.
Saturday night and I’ve got my rock pants on I’m halfway out the door and you said that I gotta stay home That’s ok, me and KG and the Bunny-man We’re gonna get rowdy and stay up as long as we can Then I’ll take the F train to the Lower East Side Gonna go to Lit Lounge and dance til I’m alive I’m gonna get on down to that rock n roll sound From Brownies to Pianos to the Mercury Lounge Cuz it’s a mental breakdown weekend I can’t go to the store It’s a mental breakdown weekend you’re the one that I can’t ignore The one I adore Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah Aahh aahh Aahh aahh Sunday morning and I’m checking the portal again Halfway out of bed and I’m trying to shed my skin That’s OK me and KG and the Bunny-man We’re gonna put on X Ray Spex and do the bounce dance again We got that vinyl spinna-spinning our heads in a daze From 1999 to Purple Rain to Purple Haze We’re gonna get on down to that rock n roll sound From the crib to the pack n play till we're out of bounds Cuz it’s a mental breakdown weekend our heads will collapse to the floor It’s a mental breakdown weekend and he’s running out of the door 1 2 3 4 Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown From the subway to the office to the panic attack From the sofa to rehearsal, I’m a midlife hack It’s another mental breakdown weekend heart attack And it sure seems like the good times are never coming back Is that a fact? Aahh aahh aahh aahh Aahh aahh aahh aahh Aahh aahh aahh aahh Aahh aahh aahh aahh Get down break down with those back dues Honey, I know your game Move on groove on with those bad blues We’re breaking our strings again Get down break down with those back dues Honey, I know your game Move on groove on with those bad blues We’re breaking our strings again Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown Oh yeah, my mental breakdown Oh yeah, here comes my breakdown From the subway to the office to the panic attack From the sofa to rehearsal, I’m a midlife hack It’s another mental breakdown weekend heart attack And it sure seems like the good times are never coming back Is that a fact? Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down Hang down break down hang down Hang down break down hang down break down
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We’re not unhinged That’s just a word for the national front to abuse Are we just bodies for the nervous machines to use? Riding on the subway with the faceless clones we succumb Rendered void of color, void of vision, void of thought we are numb Automatons on the shop floor Clock in, clock out, clock in, clock out Routine takes us over Medicate when alone Were we more aware sober? Here you go again Inciting us with your mutiny Here you are my friend With your industry and your scrutiny We’re not outraged That’s just a method to control all the bots on the page Have the antibodies in the antidote become disengaged? Stuck on the highway with the faceless drones we ride on Rendered void of passion, void of feeling, void of soul we are done This lift is going down, down, down, down She says these are the tensions of consumerist life These are the creations of the bland and the trite Here you go again Inciting us with your mutiny Here you are my friend With your industry and your scrutiny Here you go again Crushing our hopes of recovery Is this the end? Have our minds collapsed into atrophy? We rode an elevator to the end of time We saw a nuclear sunset and we thought it sublime We danced like banshees in the poison rain With our faces fully masked and the plague in our veins Don’t you know that this where the wild things go To evade the colonizers and to watch the trees grow He didn’t wanna leave he wanted to stay So we put him in a cell and threw the key away Here you go again Inciting us with your mutiny Here you are my friend With your industry and your scrutiny Here you go again Crushing our hopes of recovery Is this the end? Have our minds collapsed into atrophy? Here you go again Inciting us with your mutiny Here you are my friend With your industry and your scrutiny Here you go again Crushing our hopes of recovery Is this the end?
6.
One more distressor for you Mr. Fairytales I don’t wanna go to school in the morning I can hear the pots and pans boiling over I can feel the tremors and quakes of disorder You know this makes no sense to me I know this makes no sense to you And now the whole world’s lost its head And that’s the truth that I brought you to When we’re wearing our hearts on our sleeves Separation anxiety When we cry so hard we fall asleep Separation anxiety When I’m always staring at the phone Separation anxiety When we just can’t face this world alone Separation anxiety One more disappointment for you Mr. Barricades I don’t want to fight for a little more freedom It’s been a month or two since the tragedy You know this makes no sense to me I know this makes no sense to you And now the whole world’s lost its head And that’s the truth that I brought you to When we’re wearing our hearts on our sleeves Separation anxiety When we cry so hard we fall asleep Separation anxiety When we’re always staring at the phone Separation anxiety When we just can’t face this world alone Separation anxiety Uh-oh separation anxiety Oh no, Separation anxiety Freak out! Separation anxiety One more last chance for us Mr. Mental-case I can feel the things that you do in the worst way So close your eyes in the face of calamity Coregulate or we’re both going under You know this makes no sense to me I know this makes no sense to you And now the whole world’s lost its head And that’s the truth that I brought you to When we’re wearing our hearts on our sleeves Separation anxiety When we cry so hard we fall asleep Separation anxiety When we’re always staring at the phone Separation anxiety When we just can’t face this world alone Separation anxiety When I’m always thinking of you at work Separation anxiety God-damn I feel like such a jerk
7.
Please tell me if I am okay I think I might not be today Please tell me if it’s a good shade Of red painted on my face Please tell me if there is a way To leave cuz I really can’t stay Please just walk and leave me sitting here I think I just need to be alone And I know the heart beats slow But it feels so fast And I know the heart beats slow But it feels so fast Put the finger to the lips Feel it bumping Through my veins Feels exactly like you’d expect it Hey can you take a look at my shirt It feels like I’m sweating through Hey can you take a look at my hair It has been an especially windy day Hey can you please hold on to this thing Need my hand to make a little change Hey I just want to say sorry I know I ain’t being very fun right now And as the sun goes down The mind fogs up And as the sun goes down The mind fogs up This is when I know I am alive Even though I know It takes its toll on you Just hold me to the things I talk about I know I don’t take my own advice Just hold me to the things that come out my mouth I know I am massive hypocrite Just know that I try to shape my life I know I ain’t doing so great Just know that I feel every pain Every failure is my personal badge of shame And I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song goes on Right now And I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song goes on Right now And I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song goes on Right now And I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song goes on Right now I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song Goes on right now I know the song goes on The song goes on Yeah I know the song Goes on right now And I know the song goes on the Song goes on Yeah I know the song Goes on right now I know the song goes on the Song goes on Yeah I know the song Is ending now
8.
Long knives cut deep The elders sleep Red petals will fall around us Heart attacks and traffic lights Exit signs and plagues and blights There’s a war going on, going on inside us One day up another down Chaos turmoil all around How many times will we rebound? Again, and again and again and again Long knives cut deep The elders sleep Red petals will fall around us Crypto-bomb going tic tic toc Writing novellas when I’m on the clock Anything that we can do to ease those management blues War and peace and fruit and flowers Time destroys what we don’t devour Anything that we can do to calm each other’s abuse Long knives cut deep The elders sleep Red petals will fall around us There came a war, and we went underground We found our broken hearts in the lost and found I opened my mouth and wailed a wicked sound so ghostly I remember in December when The wind was cold, but we made the rent Our hearts were on fire, but our souls were at the end, so costly Long knives cut deep The elders sleep Red petals will fall around us We did the dance of circumstance The prophet said that it was our last chance He built a bridge but he got the bends His actions offended his last true friends Now he’s beaten down and he’s at the end He told them off and he clicked send Oh no Hell of a way to go out Hell of a way to go out Hell of a way to go out Hell of a way to go out Oh no Hell of a way to go out Hell of a way to go out Hell of a way to go out Oh no
9.
There were ashes in a jar in a house of the dead People told silly stories to deflect from their dread An injustice had happened, but they just didn’t know Whether to acknowledge it and just how far could they go There was a knife in my cranium, and I just couldn’t sleep Blood rage in my eyes cause the thing cut too deep All I could think of were the words I never said to you friend Cause it’s a terrible thing to never see you again When you can’t forgive the wrong We can’t say it so we let it be sung and it’s a given That I just can’t let it go And the filler clowns shuffle along They’re not forgiven You said this destroyed you the last time we spoke You said you’d take steps you were going for broke But it’s a one week, a two week and you’re laughing again And I’m so angry I’m shaking, you’re who you’ve always been When it’s wrong, it’s wrong, it’s wrong The poison people laugh all night long and it’s a given That I just can’t let it go So I’ll say it I’ll put it in song They’re not forgiven The elasticity of toxicities un-responded Led to the tragedy of a life absconded We elevated the jaded in our community And now we suffer the dissonance of disunity So let it count for something this fucked up insanity Are masters of self or slaves to our vanity? It’s time to face life It’s time to out-live our enemies There were ashes in a jar in a house of the dead People told silly stories to deflect from their dread An injustice had happened, but they just didn't know Whether to acknowledge it and just how far could they go When you can’t forgive the wrong We can’t say it so we let it be sung and it’s a given That I just can’t let it go And the filler clowns shuffle along They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven Aahh Aahh Aahh Aahh They’re not forgiven They’re not forgiven

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Nervous's debut album. Our Nervous Breakdown.

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released February 23, 2024

Nervous is
Joe Pepe - Lead Guitar and vox
John Gergely - Drums
Kyle Rogers - Vox, Bass and Kazoo
Rachel Swaner - Accordion and vox
Sam Rasiotis - Vox and Guitar

Recording and Mixing by Travis Harrison of Serious Business Music
Mastering by Paul Gold of Salt Mastering
Additional Recording/Editing/Mixing by Kyle Rogers
Album art by Charlotte Larson

Additional recordings at The Owl Music Parlor, Astoria Soundworks and Machine Chilling Sound Labs

Special thanks to Oren Bloedow for opening up The Owl to us, and to Miguel Hernandez and Astoria Music Collective for always supporting us and cultivating a scene for the wonderful musicians of Astoria!

And for Keith. We love you and will always hold you in our hearts as we keep getting better.

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Nervous is the convergence of an eclectic group of NYC musicians whose resumes range from downtown punk to psychedelic rock to accordion orchestras

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